It's all good.

I've been contemplative a lot lately, and I hesitate to put some of that stuff down in a blog for the world to see, but since it's positive, I'll give it a go. ;)

I'm really good with life right now. I don't know - I feel like I've struggled with life for a few years, and now I'm finally accepting where I am. I used to make these grandiose plans for myself, and the plans would always change, and I'd be so disappointed when those plans came crashing down. And lately I'm learning just to be. Just to be happy with who I am. Just to be happy being by myself. Just to be happy being single. Just to be aware of and more grateful for my current blessings. And it's incredibly freeing to be good with where you are.

Alba used to be my visiting teacher when I was in the singles ward, and she and Whit took me out to lunch one day, and I remember her saying, "Katie, I've got to be good with where I am right now. Because if I sit down and think about it too much; yeah, I get a little sad that I'm old and working as a nanny. But if I look at it just on the one day, I think, 'Alba, this is good for today.' And it is." I can't tell you how much her words have rung in my head for the months that have happened since then. It's really helped to change my perspective on life.

There's a lot to be said for setting goals, and I think that's important. But there's a lot to be said for living in the moment as well. For having fun and loving life and appreciating what you've got now. I am so thankful for my incredible, supportive family. I love them so much. I forget how blessed I am to have them and I know I'm one of the lucky ones to have best friends in my parents, siblings, and grandparents.

As much as I'm always wanting to get out and meet and socialize with new people, I have an incredible support system in my few, close friends. I have a couple of fantastic girlfriends who are always there for me - rain or shine, moody or not, sleepy or spastic. I forget sometimes how incredible it is to have such good buds around me, loving silly old me.

I have a job. I'm lucky there too. I work with great staff people, and I'm learning a lot. I'm educated, and although not directly using my degrees, I've learned a lot and am continuing my pursuit of life-long education.

I know about the gospel. Knowing about why I'm here, where I came from, and where I'm going gives me such comfort and eternal perspective. It makes the little annoyances of life and the small disappointments not worth much. I'm so thankful to have a testimony and belief in God and a Savior who loves me more than I'll ever be able to comprehend.

I'm just feeling lucky these days, I guess. My life is pretty sweet. And I'm glad of that.

1 comment:

Ginnie said...

Hey, this blog entry was sweet...but write some more yo!